I If ever, filled with pain
And sadness, I’ve been able to compose
A lay or chanson,
Or song that sounded sad,
Whose emotion
Was of weeping and misery,
Now is for me the time
And season to do so,
And the occasion as well.
For on the earth there is nothing,
No planet in the sky above,
That does not bestow
Without cause the gift of weeping
On my wretched heart;
And Fortune, with the gusts
Of a whirlwind,
Has tumbled me down from her mansion
To the ground.
II
And so doing has gazed on me
With only one eye,
And yet has done me such harm,
So God protect me,
By this askance look
That I deeply sorrow over
How in her cruelty
She did intend
To sink me into such sadness,
Holding me captive against my will
Through her false dealing
Early and late,
More than a baby
In some cradle.
She opposes everything that I wish for,
In her hardness,
Which has undermined me,
And I do not possess the look
Which gazes on me with such joy
As I was accustomed to have,
Instead I receive
Through her haughtiness
Complete misery,
When I see in high station
Many a great good-for-nothing,
Many an idiot,
And many a coward
Through her favouring them.
III
This is how Fortune proceeds,
Nurturing one,
Making another waste away,
Enriching someone,
Impoverishing someone else;
If one man weeps, another laughs over it.
She delights in all that she does.
If she brings one to greatness, she makes another small;
Rightfully she shows spite,
Her deeds bring shame;
Some other she encourages,
Another has nothing of
Delight; I do not value her benefit
More than a found farthing.
She shoves her way into many a dwelling;
If she heals one,
She kills another,
Whatever she says,
She unsays at once.
She always contradicts what she’s said.
The faithless hypocrite
Has dealt my spirit a wound such
That it will never be described
Or put into writing.
And so my heart
Languishes and lives on
In a misery that is not smaller in the least
Than the ten plagues of Egypt.
IV
And surely I do not doubt at all,
If she had properly looked
My way, that my young life
Would have been ended,
For in this world there is no iron or wood,
No force, stratagem or lordship
That might stand up to her fury;
No wisdom that might
Avoid her trickery,
Whatever its power might do.
And if my life had come
To an end, it would have pleased me greatly,
For never death, which I desire,
Would have displeased me;
For then that renegade traitor
Would not have betrayed me more,
And pity for me would have increased,
Nor would it have been
That my cruel illness
Should have festered more.
V
And so in great discomfort,
Sweet friend, my heart
Finds misery, which with such strength
Loves you, for love was never before so strong,
And from this I have neither joy nor pleasure
Because of the suffering your own bears.
And within I feel such remorse
That I’d prefer being dead.
For Fortune has done us wrong
In ways separate and perverse;
And yet especially in hope
I find a little comfort,
And I am betting on this hope
That Reason will take your part
And that by the proper path you will
Still make your way to the port of honour.
VI
May Hope draw me toward
Joy, and God look down upon him,
And thus bring me to laughter
When I am sunk in sadness,
For Hope comes to tell me
When my heart is sighing:
‘Abandon this sad theme,
Your pain and your weeping,
Return to cheerfulness
And lay aside your folly;
Soon the day will come
That your heart desires;
And that is your sweet love,
Who is the rightful flower
Of all valour,
Beyond this suffering.’
So I should not speak ill of
Hope, or offer some refusal,
For he turns my anger
Into joy whenever I weep,
And without any contradiction,
He sweetly summons me
And is a very gentle physician
For the pain I suffer,
And so the taste
Of his great sweetness
Keeps me strong
And leads me to despise
Fortune and her doings,
Who in great fear
And in great toil
Makes many a heart break.
VII
Take comfort in your suffering
From Hope
Morning and night:
If you act without fear
According to Hope,
No one has the power
To do you any harm.
It will be worthiness,
It will be wisdom,
It will be joy, peace, relief;
It will be pleasure
To possess this.
And if Anger or Spite stabs you
With his lance,
You should
Endure this in good patience
And make no attempt
To move aside,
For you should accept your tribulation
With some drop
Of Moderation:
Of rather more value is this connection
Than to have
Power over some other.
VIII
If that sweet and beautiful face,
In which there is no trace of bitterness,
Which is without peer
And unrivalled,
You are eager to gaze upon,
It’s Desire who drives mad
And torments,
Makes sigh
And weep
Many a heart; may he burn in a cruel fire!
For he makes me suffer so much
That I cannot go on.
And yet you must,
Never stopping,
Turn to the protection
Of Hope and Sweet Thought,
If Desire thinks to harm you
On account of love,
Nor should you fear.
With them you’ll have no need of defence.
IX
I know not if I am reputed
To be a woman kind and desirable;
But whatever might happen,
I am not confident
That I am the woman more loved.
Now however it turns out,
I have said this; if fate
Decrees it so, what I have foreseen
Suits me well
As long as I have been born in an hour
That, thinking no base thoughts,
I did not fail in loving you.
But since I have been led to the point
Of bestowing, not holding back,
On you all my heart,
In which love true and deep
Is faithful, resolved, and discreet,
It would be, no doubt,
A sin to be mocked in this way;
And so, speaking as I weep,
I beg you not to involve yourself
In loving some other for, whoever requests
My love, which has been granted to you,
Labours in vain.
X
Into such delight
Is my heart led,
Devoid of misery;
And it is conducted there,
By you, Hope, when you shine upon me.
But I suffer too much
When down a pit,
Where I experience more than
A hundred measures of turmoil,
I must fall when you take flight.
Flower or fruit
Are there none, I am alone there;
So I cannot find
The door to
Joy. There my nights are long,
There I destroy myself
When I cannot find you;
There I make myself so miserable
That I am led
To find all my refuge in weeping.
XI
But I do not despair
Since I have you,
For the laments
And the misery
That I bear
Are extinguished.
Your power conquers
And overcomes,
Well I know it,
All that mars
And blackens
My joyful heart.
And so in my lay
Without delay
And without moaning
I will take joy
And I will abandon
My complaining;
And if many ills
Have weighed me down,
With a faithful heart,
Which remains with you,
Whatever is there for it,
I will love you.
XII
And so, my friend, take from your gracious
Hope, the most beautiful person
And sweet name
Which surpasses in good repute everyone else.
And truly,
If you possess securely in yourself the impression
Of them,
You will inhabit your prison
With joy.
If you manage this otherwise,
In pain, and miserably,
You will often experience
Confusion, pain, and
Lamentation.
Praise God with devotion,
And in a soft voice:
I see here no better joy, or any enjoyment
So good.
English: R Barton Palmer © 2018